God, why do I do the things I do, instead of seek out the best from You? Abba, why can’t I let go of me and grasp onto You?
God, what is this barrier in my soul and mind, which prevents me from hearing Your voice divine? Abba, why do I listen to all else but You?
God, why do I stuff emotions with food and not ease the pain with Your good? Abba, why can’t I surrender to You?
God, why is my mind so scattered and cluttered, refusing to be soothed by Your Word uttered? Abba, why can’t I receive comfort from You?
God, why do I let crisis and chaos push and shove me away from rest in Your ever present Love? Abba, why don’t I believe in love for me from You?
Human In Recovery 